if you think you know me well enough? think again.

i'm blurred to really "see" who i am.
i was talking to my sis and this was what she analysed..

she described with a given score of 1- 10 for eg: clubbing.
i'm probably at the score of 5.

because i was sharing with her, why do my cousins and friends- i go club with, they will "protect" me at the dance floor or i'll shy to one corner. basically every time i visit clubs, its like my first time.
whereas, from the view of someone who didnt go club before, they see me as someone who loves to club, drink and have fun. someone "loose" in fact. :(
........................

here, my sis showed me a bigger and clearer picture
lookin from the angle of someone who clubs often( at the scale of 10),
they will see that i'm not that kind who will be loose.
as for those who doesnt club or even visited a pub before(at the scale of 0) , they see that someone who is beyond of what they are... are considered rotten.

its not always,
someone who have tattoos or piercings = they take drugs or commit crimes.

all i wanna convey merely is that...
people stereotype.
well, i probably would too.




i think i need a psychologist ,
i have been shutting myself out from guys... for this years...
skeptics...... i gotta do something about it!


as we grow older, our mentality change......
this thinking is so yesterday!!!
looking at those friends i grew up with....
i personally thinks that our mentality differs a lot.

one more factor might be the people i hang around with,
my relatives are in their mid/late 20s.
i might be missing out on my actual.