i know everything lies in me . i'm still that faggot in the past . a leopard never change its spot , isnt it ? i can see history repeating itself once again . episodes of everybody's turning their back at me . i thought throughout this 2 years i gained something from the mistakes i made , i really thought i had overcame this but situations proved me wrong .
the evil me is showing herself again . once again , for being paranoia - fretting over small issues , afraid of losing control over her life .
i wanna decide the way i run this life . seemingly , everyone's going separate ways . i can see this world tearing down on me . yes , right before my eyes .
lost in this battling ground , defeated .

perhaps , all these while i was only writing on a paper wall .

☆ ╬ lonesome embraced ╬ ★