thoughts running through my mind.

perhaps i dont want any commitments.
come to think of building a strong foundation in a relationship tires me out.
maybe i've given too much in my first relationship.
i'm not sick of love. but i have yet to feel love.
maybe i've not met the right one.
i guess i've got no idea who i want to be. what kinda future i'll be having.
a nurse?
most prob a air stewardess like what i always wanted to be?

stop asking me why are you single?
why dont wanna accept any guy that's interested in you?
i'm not ready is not the answer to it.
its just an excuse.
he's not good enough is not appropriate too.
cos i havent even thought of who i want to be.
how can i think of who i want to be with?
mr right, where are you? hahhaha!

pardon me if i ignored you or giving you guys cold shoulders.
im afraid of proceeding into the next stage after friendship.
its easy to have crush or eye candies.
but..bgr requires a lot of trust and commitments.

looking at love in a long term, studies/career still comes first.

whatever it is.. i'm just bullshitting. cos i dont think i've met my mister. haas!
i'm still immatured in some ways isn't it.
getting involved in bgr only burdens my partner.
to me... love is.... a feeling to be controlled by our brain.
would you want a love that cant give u a proper life?
a partner who cant even support himself/herself?
a relationship cant work out with only love itself.



i will not love until i find myself.



pacemaker wont work this time.

Labels: Life struggling.