feeling rather confused.. always thot tt there'll be frenz thr for me when i'm down.. but..everytime i turn to them.. they only listen.. when they're down they turned to other ppl.. i feel like i'm a loser.. no one would even wanna talk to me.. i noe everyone haf a choice.. they can choose their fren freely.. perhaps frm e start.. i shldnt turn to anyone.. they just rank me so lowly.. i thot we both were good fren.. but aft e attachment.. i feel.. eveyrthing had changed..
everyone's getting attached(having a bf).. this made me feel even more inferior and closed up.. feel like there's nt a single soul whom i can talk to..
i noe.. i shld judge a person by their appearance.. but u cant force me to love someone i dont even like! those ah bengs.. not tt i wanna judge by their look.. but ah bengs.. i cant possibly like them..~ i hate bengs.. n those who tink so highly of themselves.. i just hate it..
i cant do anything abt this emptiness inside me.. i dont wish to talk to anyone now..
just keep on sleeping.. tt's the only way i can stop myself frm thinkin.. i just cant trust anyone now... everyone's thinkin lowly of me.. even myself... i dont need any concerns frm anyone... nt in e right mood.. no one even care in e first place..


everyone haf a choice.. i'm just a burden to everyone.. shldnt have exsisted frm the start..



tt's when reality hits right into ur face...