i tink i'm suffering from slight depression. i cant recover that soon.. it takes me at least a night to return back to my usual self.. it takes more than just 1 day recently.. sucidal thoughts been visiting my mind everytime i'm down. yet my family members doesnt know a single thing. that's when u feel u dont belong in this family or even this planet. everyone thinks tt i dont give a damn to problems in the family. as if....... i guess they are the one who doesnt. i did tried my best to spend my own money, use as lil' as possible. i think i spent only a quarter or even lesser than what she spent when she's at my age. i wished to leave this family as soon as possible. there's no reason for me to stay on.
thank god for giving me a good partner, mom and cousin.
all i could say is thank you for being understanding.
anyway, im in the wrong this time. i shall take the responsiblity of my own action.
everyone will be happy if only i dont exsist. sorry for being a burden for so long.